I thought I was awoken by a great thought sequence but I fear it was eagerness for cheese that has culminated in the explosive contemplation..Do I have enough loo paper to get me through til the morning..
How do you solidify a thought?(def the cheese talking) how do you turn an idea into an object or is it that the thought comes from a physical, solid being is that enough weight?? why is there a desire to turn a concept into reality….how to give weight to thought..
I spent yesterday strolling around the nearby park doing laps of the lake and islands..I perched myself by some geese and swans for a bit (trying to overcome my fear of these creatures as to perhaps convince myself I can conquer any upcoming adversities). The bridge connecting the island was outfitted in a bondage style pvc ensemble.. white stretched plastic confining its structure and a huge zip running down its length. it seemed to be suffering through its confined public display..
…my head is muttering.. stay right… cross at the crossings.. theres the zoo rock that will help you find your way back…look this lawn its just weeds that’s great… I wonder how weeds converse if its like teenage banter to the surrounding trees ... I wonder if the grass has grown at home…pffttt (my mind speaks in french too) of course it has…. There is a homeless person in the cave… I shouldn’t be here this must be his space..do locals know this?.. does he need help?..would people from the other side of paris know not to walk through the cave as its belongs to him or just the locals?..or maybe just one person knows that rule….Im sorry that i chose this path… what do you remember.. Smile and say bonjour…. cute dog….I miss my dog.. On and on it goes..what do you remember……….Breathe…Thats what you remember.
ps
thinking that my unrelenting nattering is trying to connect present unknown with a safe place..trying to calm me to guide me through…keep thinking of zippers..