Had a little altercation yesterday on a train..and you know how somethings just stick and you cant shake it.. its like a tiny, sudden, emotional overload that you just weren’t expecting..
..So i bumped into a man getting on the train (he had his back turned to the doors and was blocking the entrance).. I excused myself in what I worked out later was Italian..(why does that cross language pollination happen in a foreign country?) He approached me and started yelling at me, I lost the ability to put words together, I just stood there as the entire cabin stared.. I know the French are not shy about telling you you’ve made a mistake..But this was a little overkill…I couldn’t find any words I just looked at my toes like a child being scolded. I was embarrassed but mostly disappointed that Id said the wrong thing and then couldn’t speak to explain my mistake…. Fuck it…. arsehole.. It was the line Oriane had warned me about.. I was pleased that he got off a couple stations before me so It would end.
Saturdays are busy, even early. I went to a couple flea markets and then strolled past some little commercial galleries which were closed so they’ll have nose smudges to deal with when they arrive to work… Theres always a lot of traditional paintings going on.. A couple of interesting works using movement which I really dug I might go back and have another look..I love the idea but It would be interesting to make the platform base less uniform?????
There are a lot of homeless around asking for change.. It must be so much harder now with everyone using plastic currency.. Ive decided to give my small change to a lady around the corner each night, not that I have much to spare but I say Bon soir madame and give her my eyes, I see you.… Im so fucking privileged…. I hope she got a meal or wine or the drugs she needs to get through the night….
Art.. fucking art..fuck it… its nearly time to tear it all down and start again!!
Still playing here’s some contact that has spent the last 3 days over the heaters.. kind of feels like the backbone I need to get (both metaphorically and literally (backs been actually good)!) ;!!!!… all the ribbing has disappeared overnight so that goes on the things to ponder about this morning!!…..